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Thu, 29 May 2008 14:38:54 GMT

NEW LJ!
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Thu, 22 May 2008 16:30:56 GMT

VMK has closed. How lame. Haha, my life is over.
(Fly, quii (me), Ahoy)

Tue, 20 May 2008 19:30:38 GMT

I'm proud to say that summer is finally here

and American Idol is tonight.

David Cook ftw, please. (right)

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 01:30:50 GMT

I could use 1643049349061949489 hugs right now.
Maybe even more..

LOL, I DON'T KNOW.

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 05:25:51 GMT

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 05:08:55 GMT

Today was total ew. The weather has been crappy, you know, rainy and cold. Thankfully the weather is suppose to be nice for the rest of the weekend.
Anyways, I spent my night going grocery shopping, eating at Taco Bell and watching Juno. I got the Nintendo Wii a couple of days ago! I almost died. I've been testing my mad bowling skills. I would really like to start cooking with 'Cooking Mama' though. ;)
I'm relieved that school is done for the week. I honestly felt like I was going to explode. But I'm home now, and my eye is bothering me terribly. I might go to sleep pretty soonish.

Um, Prom is tomorrow and everyones been talking about getting their nails done. To be honest, I don't give a shit. It's just a big dance. It's not a big deal, in my opinion. But I guess, I really don't know. Jazmyn is suppose to come over tomorrow and so is Allie and Chandra. I'm not doing much at all this weekend, so make plans with me. Or else I'll turn into a couch potato.
I want April to get over with already. I want May. I have so much going on next month, it's crazy. I'm also very excited! I get to go to my cousin's graduation in a couple of weeks. I'm really excited to go see them! And of course, the school's Adventureland trip is in about two weeks? I don't know, but I'm excited. Even if it's totally lame.

Well, I'm tired of typing and I'm pretty sure you're tired of reading.
So, goodnight.

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 01:54:55 GMT

i wish i wasn't so insecure.

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 03:46:32 GMT

I haven't posted anything in a while, so I'll explain 'pretty much' everything you've missed out on. My 16th birthday was about a week ago and i got a new laptop! Unfortunately it was no Mac like i had hoped, but it's a Dell Inspiron and i love it. I didn't really do much to celebrate my birthday, but I did take Aubrey and Ely shopping with me and we got new shoes! Next was spring break, which was only two days for us because the school I go to happens to be GAYSTUPIDLAMESHIT. Sorry. I guess i enjoyed most of it. I spent a lot of time with the family for Easter. We didn't really have a big egg hunt like we use too though, but it's all good.

Well, I'm starting to count down the last days of school. Ever since spring started I've been getting more and more of a craving for summer. Only 36 more days? Something like that. 4th quarter always seems to go so slow and i really need to work hard on my geometry. I really need to pass. Haha, really! Lately I've been losing focus n my school work. I'm getting so tired of it. I don't do my homework until i get to school in the morning and I basically do everything at the last minute. I really need to get in the zone, I guess.

So, Todays schedule:

1st hour, World History: Got my presentation grade back. Not too happy about it, but I'll get over it. Played random trivia game with Jaz, Allie, and Patrick! We ended up winning, but we got one wrong. I guess now we know how tall Tom Cruise is.
2nd hour, Phy. Science: Watched video about cyclones and tornadoes. Boring.
3rd hour, Geometry: We had a substitute again, Mrs. Pualie? I don't know, but the class got away with almost everything while she was there. I ended up watching youtube videos with Trent, Jade, and Lindsay. It was fun.
4th Hour, English: I showed Mr. B. my research for the research paper the class is doing. Basically the whole hour was full of drama and gossip. Drama at my school is TERRIBLE.
5th hour, Choir: We went into the band room an d watched the 10th Kingdom again. I'm really getting into it. Haha!
6th hour, Team Act: I fucking hate this class. We played wiffle ball like we do almost everyday. I felt so out of it and tired. I should have sat out, but i never do.
7th hour, Spanish 2: We sat and ate the rest of the food that was leftover from the Spanish 1 fiestas.
8th hour, Study Hall (DUN DUN DUUUN): Study hall was boring and slow just like always. sit with Katie and Tom, Ryan, and Allie sit on the other side of the table. JUST BORING AND BLAH and I can't stand it.

So, my school day was a bit of WOO! with a little bit of BOO!

But, of course, TGIF. ~

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 01:53:56 GMT

this week is going to be great. yet, I'm not that happy. i don't know.

Fri, 07 Mar 2008 02:26:52 GMT

soon, hopefully soon!

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 17:07:56 GMT

so, today i'm stuck home, sick. i have nothing better to do than post an entry on livejournal. my sickness consists of non-stop coughing, runny/stuffy nose, headaches, sore throat, and just feeling like complete shit. i'll finally find out what's wrong with me when i go to the doctor with my Dad. he has the same sickness. i'm pretty sure it's just a sinus infection, but i don't know. it's nice to miss school, but when you feel like shit, it's not. i'm just glad i get to rest.

my life savers.

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 22:16:04 GMT

I didn't do much today, but i saw the Be Kind, Rewind. It was great, but it wasn't the best. I really wanted to do some shopping because i never get out that much anymore because of the weather. But i didn't want to spend all afternoon in Omaha. I really have no plans for tomorrow, so if you want to do something, call me. I understand that my entries aren't exciting. To be honest, my days haven't been to exciting. Just wait until spring. I'll have more to talk about. Let's just get this crappy winter over with. Today was actually decent though. Nice and sunny.

So, next week is the last week of February. To be honest, i'm overjoyed about it. I love March. My birthday will be coming up and so will spring. Thankfully, the start of 4th quarter is the first week of March. I would have to say that my sophomore year went by extremely fast. I'm trying to decide whether that's a good thing or a bad thing. I'm happy that i'll be a junior next year, but i'm also a little scared because I still have no clue what i want to do when i get out of school and what college i'm going to. Gahh, i still have a while to wait and think about it. But It's a thing i keep in mind. I'm pretty sure my ranting is boring you. So, i'll stop.

I'm in the mood to dance. i just want to dance the night away. ~

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 23:30:08 GMT

wishlist.

urban outfitters - $32.00

miss sixty jeans - $74.50

american apparel - $18.00

american apparel - $16.00

urban outfitters - $28.00

american apparel - $34.00

urban outfitters - $28.00

threadless - $17.00

converse - $42.00

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 22:26:01 GMT

happy valentines day, loves.

Sat, 09 Feb 2008 02:31:36 GMT

I'm totally relieved that i finally got my camera back last night. They fixed the problem, but now i need to buy another USB cord. I can't wait to use it again!
I'm not going to go on and talk about my day because it was just that bad. Except for the last 10 minutes of 8th hour, but i wont get into that. When i got home, i took a nap. Oh yes, a nap. Then my mom called and woke me up, of course. She told me that she couldn't find a Nintendo Wii. Gamestop had only restocked on '3' of them. I might as well wait until summer. Anyways, i have no plans for this weekend. At least not that I know of. I really need to do some shopping though. I just feel like i wear the same thing over and over and over. I need something different? I wish Omaha had an American Apparel and Forever21. Just two more stores Omaha!
As far as shopping goes, i need to earn money. I've been trying to think of what kind of job I want this summer. It's hard to find a job in a small town though. I have no way of getting to Omaha or Council Bluffs. I also have Drivers ed this summer. I wish i would've taken it last year, but i was such a lazy ass. I just want this summer to be a good one. But I know that's a while away from now. At least spring is almost here. To sum it all up today wasn't that great. Haha, hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Btw, My mom brought home the movie "Elizabeth: The Golden Age" and a series of "The Tudors" today! Haha, i love it. :)

~ LOL U KNO IT. ~

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 00:37:48 GMT

i miss my camera. ;(

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 17:59:46 GMT

January is finally over. The weather has been so nasty lately. Thankfully the snow is melting, but it's melting slowly. January was a crappy month. Worse than I had expected it to be. I'm just glad it's over. I'm just so ready for spring and summer. Bring on the good weather. I'm sick of only seeing white and brown when i walk outside. I want more color.

Love, love is a verb
Love is a doing word
Fearless on my breath
Gentle impulsion
Shakes me makes me lighter
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

Nine night of matter
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath
Black flowers blossom
Fearless on my breath

Teardrop on the fire
Fearless on my breath

Water is my eye
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath
Teardrop on the fire of a confession
Fearless on my breath
Most faithful mirror
Fearless on my breath.

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 23:47:14 GMT

ugh, i give up. :(

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 02:11:36 GMT

Well, today was okay, could've been better. We had to play speed ball in team activities today and the locker room smelled so bad today. It was a nightmare. I've been getting better grades with geometry homework and i'm hoping to at least bring my grade up to a B+? I just really need to focus more, i guess. I'm not good at understanding things quickly. it takes time.

ugh, i'm so pissed. i can't upload any pictures because my USB cord that goes with my camera doesn't work anymore. For some reason, my computer doesn't 'recognize' it. So, i guess i have to buy another cord? I'm just confused. I just hope i get it soon. I love my camera, but i hate the lighting. Whenever i put it on flash, it over flashes x 129481025. Haha, i have the Kodak EasyShare Z612. It's really nice, but the lighting confuses me and the no flash quality sucks. I really want a Canon Rebel XTi, but i know i wont be getting a new camera anytime soon.

Well, i've been having some social problems lately. I'm really shy and i can't get myself to talk to some people. I hate being quiet. I just never have anything to say, i guess. I like this boy at my school and i can't talk to him because i suffer from being shy. i feel like i have the flu when i'm around him. I'm pathetic, really. :(
I have so many good opportunities and i never use them, because i'm scared or i don't know how to. i'm so timid.

I just want this year to get better. I kind of had a bad start..

I'm lacking any discipline
Pulling strings
Typing up your skin of porcelain
Stopped listening
No longer need the sunlight
That night we had will suffice
Infatuation is the perfect camouflage
A warm and temporary place to go

I'm lacking any confidence
Second-guessing
Separate for perspective
Is there nothing left?
Now I'll see you for weeks and weeks
Judge hastily, no patience

I've seen you under every, every sort of light
From my ideal perfection to the darker side
You always were
You always were so good to me

I need a stimulant
Something to help reinvent
I need a stimulant
Something to help reinvent
Well, I have only one request
Wait until I'm gone

Is there nothing left
Nothing at all
Is there nothing left
Nothing at all

I need a stimulant
Something to help reinvent
I need a stimulant
Somethign to help reinvent
Well i have only one request

You always were
You always were
So good to me

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 23:26:05 GMT

so, i haven't posted an entry in a while. since thanksgiving has passed, i've been getting ready for christmas and i'm terribly excited. i helped put up the christmas tree and decorations the day after thanksgiving. it took forever, but i got through alright. all i want for christmas is a macbook! haha, it's a lot. I don't think i'll be getting one though. My parents said i need to work on getting a better grade in my geometry class first. Ugh, it's always math.
Wow, i really need a new computer.

anyways, school has been cool. My sophomore year is turning out to be a good one. I'm just working on becoming more..i don't know.."social"? I'm kind of a quiet person, but I've gotten better this year and I've met a lot of new people. :)
I'm so excited for 2008. I don't know why, I just want to start a new year. I'm just really pumped up for christmas and new years.
Next week I'm going to see Avril Lavigne in concert with my mom. Haha, my mom loves Avril Lavigne. I'm not a 'big' fan, but i like some of her music. I also want to see "The Golden Compass". I can't wait to see that movie! WOOO.

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 22:04:57 GMT

I'M IN LOVE.
haha, and i'm out of money.

i got them when i went to Des Moines.
-dies-

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 01:09:26 GMT

things are going a lot better than i expected this year. school has actually been fun.
I really don't know what to say. haha, how are you?

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 00:25:28 GMT

I haven't posted anything in a while. I've been busy with school, i guess. School has been going pretty good so far! I think it's def. starting out better than last year. Even though we can no longer carry bags around. Which has made me terribly unorganized. But, i'm okay.
Our school is having a musical and i'm going to be in it! HAHAHA, wow. I'm kind of excited. I hope it has a good turn out. I really don't like the theme. It's about the "Iowa State Fair". Oh well, I want to be more involved this year. I have a lot of fun during the musical rehearsals though. I get to see friends more that way.
Today was cool. Except for the two tests I had to take. Science and Geometry. I really hope I did well on them. It bugs me not knowing how well i did on a test. Hopefully I will sleep tonight. Haha!

I feel the need to buy more clothes. I barely have any clothes that fit me. I want to get out more, but I can't drive. I'm so lazy. I hate it. Living in a small town isn't the greatest either. I really don't have much to say right now. Even though I have like a million things on my mind. I'll post some more later.

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 17:16:07 GMT

School is next week and I'm not really ready for it. This summer def. wasn't what I thought it would be. It was boring. I'm hoping next year's summer will be a lot better. My school hours are so lame and we aren't allowed to carry bags in school anymore. I'll be a Sophomore this year. I'm not very excited. Haha, as you can tell. Well, I'm going to stop ranting about school and move on to a better subject.
My mom and I went shopping and I got some new clothes! FINALLY! Haha, all of my other clothes barely fit me anymore. I guess I've grown, but I def. don't see a change. I was hoping to buy new shoes but they didn't have what I wanted. I'm looking for a pair of nike air morgans.

I was going to buy a pair online, but they didn't have my size. -_-
I swear, that always happens to me! I get so excited when I see something and it always seems to end up in a different size. Bleh. I hope to find them at a different store, but the malls in Omaha don't seem to carry them.

Aubrey and I had a picnic out at the park the other day. The weather was much better than lat time. We went to Foodland and bought chips and Dr. Peppers.
WE STAY HEALTHY! Not really. The walk down there was quite entertaining. I had terrible blisters on my heels, because of my flats. They hurt so bad! :(
But we survived. :D

I really don't have that much to say. Not much has been happening here. I want to move so badly. I'm tired of Iowa.

Mon, 30 Jul 2007 00:10:06 GMT

I went to the zoo yesterday and it was pretty awesome, but it was terribly crowded and hot. I didn't get to take many pictures, but I took a few.
I'm hoping next time, the weather wont be as bad. Some of the pictures turned out crappy, some were okay.

zoo pictures!

I really wish I could've taken more pictures. D: